My thoughts on time

Sometimes I feel like that scared little girl I used to be.  I used to look forward to the future but I feel like my dreams are slowly drifting away from me and it's getting out of my reach.  I'm scared of growing up, but time waits for no one.  This manmade system is giving me deep anxiety.  My whole life revolves arounds it--life in general revolves around it.  I wish I can manage it better but how can I if I'm mainly trying to recover from the exhaustion it gives me.  The exhaustion of trying to squeeze everything and everyone in.

I totally lost myself in everything.  I don't even know who I am anymore.